Erotica

I wanted to take a few minutes to talk about a positive film depicting two gay men making love. It depicts the love between two men and their celebration of it by making love for Tony's camera.

The quality of the production makes it a valid film and has been recognized by various documentary awards. Althoug it is having a hard time with the censors in Australia presently, it is obviously a step in the right direction for all of us. It is also being used in HIV workshops as a positive depiction of sex within a monogamous relationship.

To check out the site and the Film click here.

I strongly urge the guys out there that enjoy gay adult material to invest in the film.

Damon and Hunter, a film by Comstock, is a high quality production. We aren't talking about Digital clips or video, we are talking about true film processes that many adult industry companies are just not willing to invest time and money into. The overall effect gives us something we have been all lacking... an example of just how erotic and beautiful sex is when its an expression of love between two people.

We all need to support the film and its place in our evolving community as a standard setter!!

Back in the Business

Madonna does bad girl better than anyone, and this one song in particular has always been a guilty pleasure.

Probably because its so easy for me to accept the bad guy identity due to my heritage and the current state of affairs in America

Enjoy it and think of me.

I'm gonna show you that good guys don't always win
I'm gonna show you the brighter side of living in sin.
So when you're six feet under, you won't wonder why
Just 'cause you got a halo don't mean that you can fly.
If you thought it was over, you're way off track
You made a blunder, and...

You put me back, back in business,
This ain't no hit or miss, I'm gonna get my way.
'Cause you put me back, back in business,
You're my first witness, and I'm here to stay.

I'm gonna show you good guys always finish last
Speaking of virtue, being nice is a thing of the past.
When I want something done, I'll say it with a gun
Just 'cause you're an angel don't mean you're having fun.
I just wanted to thank you for what you lack
Hope they don't hang you, 'cause...

A tisket, a tasket, you've lost your yellow basket

You don't know if you want to hit me or kiss me.

I just wanted to thank you for what you lack
Hope they don't hang you, 'cause...

He's back in business now
Give me a hand and I'll take a bow.
He's back in business now
Bah dah dah, bah dah dah, bah dah dah, bah dah dah.

He's coming back in style
Give me an inch and I'll take a mile.
He's back and why oh why
Bah dah dah, bah dah dah, bah dah dah, bah dah dah.

Do people ever really think?

I have come to the conclusion that people think that my identity as a gay muslim man is as dispensable as their opinions of muslims in the world.

Not only is my identity not dispensable, they simply aren't in the same ballpark.

I am tired of talking about it with people that cant tell the difference.

Just very frustrated and had to say it somewhere.

Harvey Is Right

I found this link on a site, Thanks Matty!!, and after listening to it about five times, I had to post it here.

http://www.inthelifetv.org/inthelife/outtakes/index.php?oID=4

it is one of the most honest appraisals of the state of Gay society and where the young gay men fit into it.

I have to admit that I welled up a little the first couple of times I listened.

I guess because he makes me feel like he's the father I wish I had. If all older gay men could see things as he does, guys like me would feel alot more a part of things.

Please take the time to listen.

really listen. Turn down the TV and the MP3 player and focus on every word.

You will do all of us a favor if you do.

if anybody knows Harvey, tell him thank you for me, and tell him to drop me a line!!

So here's the thing....

How do we make the gay world a better place?

I don't do the alcohol thing for obvious reasons, and so that leaves me out of a HUGE chunk of what gay men do.

The Majority of my gay interactions now take place through a site called Just Us Boys. While they go to great lengths to make a safe haven for gays of all types to exchange ideas and forge real bonds of friendship, and are miles above all the gay on-line hook up sites, they are just one lone voice in the wilderness.

I have really enjoyed delving into the gay blogosphere, and I wonder...Why aren't the large chunk of non bar going and non casual sex type gays so limited in such an unlimited media?

If you guys have any ideas please post them in comments to this blog entry...

The bombs keep falling in Lebanon and Israel

I feel so powerless

Do they realize that they are all God's children ?

Why have we, as a race and species, lost our humanity?

I hope for a better world, but how will we ever get past the hurt we heap upon each other.

I saw a blind woman being pulled from the wreckage of a collapsed hospital in Lebanon on one channel, and a child crying for her dead father in Tel Aviv on another.

Out of the ruins

Out from the wreckage

Can't make the same mistake this time

We are the children

the last generation

We are the ones they left behind

And I wonder when we are ever gonna change

Living under the fear till nothing else remains

Looking for something we can rely on

There's got to be something better out there

Love and compassion, their day is coming

All else are castles built in the air

And I wonder when we are ever gonna change

Living under the fear till nothing else remains

All the children say

We don't need another hero

We don't need to know the way home

All we want is life beyond the thunderdome

What do we do with our lives

We leave only a mark

Will our story shine like a life

Or end in the dark

Give it all or nothing

~Tina Turner~

It seems that, as I have such a big fresh mouth, I would not have been able to resist this endeavor sooner.

If that comment makes any sense, we will get along just fine.

Being a gay Muslim is a rough road to tread. Rather than accept the limitations that either group has been forced to accept in our era, I have chosen the much harder path; to forge my own road as a unique creature. I have come to terms with my sexual identity as well as my spiritual identity, and I have done it by seeking only the most pragmatic of solutions. As I gained courage and strength from being a muslim in a christian world, instead of letting the dogma guide me, I chose to borrow that strength to find and forge my own view of enlightenment. A path that assumed that God knew best when he created me Gay. Any divine force that can create a universe, certainly knows how to get such a minor part of it as Andreus Thanos exactly the way he intended.

I am half Greek and half Persian, but my mother's side of the family emigrated to Croatia from the Persian lands centuries ago. I had the good fortune of being born in America, the place that they chose to build a life in together. Their relationship with each other as well as mine with them has never been anything less than intense and challenging. With so many cultural currents pulling in so many directions, we were almost doomed from the start as a functional family unit. But thats a story for later. For now, just understand that I've travelled the world with my family as a child and young man, and now as a young man on my own, trying to find my place in it.

The choices I have made have at times been as extreme as my heritage. I have no shame for doing whatever I have had to do to survive. I am an evolving creature with every passing day, so dont be suprised when I occasionally take a hard turn into uncharted territory. just buckle in, and you are welcome along. As long as we greet every life as sacred and every human being entitled to kindness, you are welcome.

This blog is where I want to continue my exploration of being a young gay man in search of love, fun, sexual expression, and acceptance while being a young Muslim man in search of his soul.

Its hard to figure out where the gay part meets with the Muslim part, and I have never faltered in the exploration.

Yeah... thats what we'll call it.

Exploration of my parts.

Of course, I've always needed a helping hand for for such undertakings.

what do you say?

are you up to it?